Friday, November 30, 2007 >> My Sacrifice

I'm willing to sacrifice my life for you... u're willing to sacrifice ur last toe for me. that says alot. its like i just sold my soul to the devil... and you're just there watching me sell it away... i cant believe it... i really cant... i must me the most dumbass guy on earth! seriously... do u even care abt how i feel? i hope you do? am i asking too much? am i? im so low... so damn low...



Wednesday, November 28, 2007 >> Doesn't make sense.

i kept thinking abt it.... its almost a week since the huge AA bomb dropped on me and i just kept thinking... ur online... i wanna talk... but im not... how the hell am i going to wait 3 fucking years when right now we're slowly drifting apart... doesnt make sense.... we're drifting apart.... and i just don't want to... if only i knew what to do... if only you knew... its eating me frm the inside... hope u know.



Update:

she talked to me. =) something smells fishy... its like she read my blog.



Monday, November 26, 2007 >> Radio

I heard a familiar song on the radio while driving today... its been a really long time since i heard it... but its a song that might give an insight of what i've been feeling... mayb not the last chorus.

'It's not so bad... You're only the best i ever had....'

Class 95 was kinda cool today... playing music from the 80s... i'm a big fan of the 80's... so yea... i know that i often think too much so yea... 1 thing led to another and yea... i thought of you again... that song... our song... i still remember it...

(And) i was dying inside to hold you
I couldn't believe what i felt for you
Dying inside i was dying inside
But i couldn't bring myself to touch you

Retarded... but yea... don't judge me... i'm still human!


Thanks paul for the parking coupon...



Sunday, November 25, 2007 >> How?

Letting go is one thing... Living every single day knowing i had to let go is another... its not easy... sometimes i wish i could be selfish... 3days... feels like forever... 3 years? whats more than forever?



Saturday, November 24, 2007 >> Memories

helped out Kavin's AFP group today... was quite interesting... and later went down Nicole's AFP location to pick up the van... helping her group drive... so yea...

keeping myself as occupied as possible... at least its a divertion away from my problems...

but in a way... it kinda making things hard for me... coz i guess sooner or later i'll have to face up to reality. and driving down TPE alone ain't making things better...

For some strange reason... it has to be TPE... mayb coz we used to go JLK often... and it just brings back the good times...

was surperise Audi msged me to go drinking on Sunday... looks like i really need it... haha....



Thursday, November 22, 2007 >> Save me

Its Late... I'm awake again... I cant sleep... really... i cant... my head is filled with thoughts... loads of thoughts... my head wants to explode... i want to explode... i feel that im on the edge of going insane... i must keep myself sane... i think about you... and all the stuff we've been through... happy, sad, whatever... its too late... 3months too late... i its never too late... 3 years... i'll be waiting... 3 years... its only been 1 fucked up day... i still got many more days to come... many many more...

i think i'm lossing my sanity... i'm going crazy... seriously... even roy don't taste tt good anymore... roy not tasting good... im really losing it... i need help... before i do something stupid... i need help... theres nobody...

i'm not superman... i try to be... but i'm nowhere close.... i can't fight on... but i rather lose everything than not fighting... pride, dignity and everything i am.

I'm slowly dying inside. save me.



Wednesday, November 21, 2007 >> Qoute of My Day.

To let true love remain unspoken is the quickest route to a heavy heart.



Monday, November 19, 2007 >> Ouch.

Hahaha... i think my toe is kinda swallon... kicked a wall in frustration yesterday... oh well... its still hurts... so yea....



Sunday, November 18, 2007 >> why

Why didn't you call? why did you slip your phone back in?



Saturday, November 17, 2007 >> Finally.

Thank God shoot is finally over... damn bloody shag man... oh well... in the next couple of weeks i'll be chionging to school to start my edit. going to be rather busy.... mayb its in opportunity to forget some personal problems... maybe...

I feel so shit... so shit till im stuck in this hole and i just can't find a way to get out of it. driving 40km/hr on the TPE makes me think alot. i'm lost... its like having a street directory and not knowing where u are. u try to go straight to find a way out... but u end up at the same place. stupid... but somehow it happens.

Anyway... i just wanna endthis post with... To Stranger, although i ask not to reply... i just wanna know for the record...

Sorry.



Friday, November 16, 2007 >> Sorry.

I'm Sorry. But Sorry is just a word... it doesn't make things better... it only makes it worse.



Thursday, November 08, 2007 >> Another Late Night.

Looks like another late night for me... just watched bowling for columbine... really like the whole documentary. it really makes you think how stupid the world is... haha... to me it was a very open sort of ending... trying to find an answer, which is just right smack in your face and refusing to believe the answer. Oh well... people just can't handle the truth.


Was doing the damn call sheets before watching bowling for columbine... i re-did it like 5 times because i was having trouble with damn excel!

Sleep is a waste of time! Agree?

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Name: Dar
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Birthday: 22nd June
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[]The Lady In Red Standing Behind You
[]People That Think They Look Damn Cool But In Fact They Look Like My Toilet Seat
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